I’ll Play

Jordan started it and Shan and Sasha have continued it. Since I have not one damned interesting thing to blog about this week, I’ll just …follow their lead.

My name is Cece (regardless of what any birth certificate says) and my life has been fairly boring but here goes. I’ve ridden a horse, I spent 2 years in the Phillipines (not that I remember), I found my biological mother and facilitated reunions for other people. I learned to read tarot cards (I’m seeing a theme here girls) and do numerology. I’ve done past life regression.
I’ve been divorced 3x longer than I was married, drove to Nashville all by myself, worked one weekend as a waitress in a strip club, got two tattoos, and um wrote a book.

Things I’d like to do? See New Mexico, Montana, Colorado (again), Tennessee (again), and the Carolinas. Visit Teotihuacan. Learn to play the guitar. Meet my crit partners IRL. And take the kids to Disney World.


Shan has a great post on character charts…which I sometimes use, though not so much anymore. I was gonna post another reply but thought I’d make it a blog entry instead.

In FU Stephie’s best friend (and no I didn’t name her after Steph, I wanted her to have a real white bread name 😆 ) works up a Numerology chart for her, which I really did. Now, I didn’t pick Stephie’s name to get any particular results, but I was amazed to find that a lot of the stuff that came up did fit her. So for fun I thought I’d post some (I’ve snipped out some of the dialogue).

“First is your Inner Self. This is like your deepest desires and it can have a huge impact on your life. Your Inner Self is a 5. Your greatest desire is personal freedom. Freedom in every aspect of your life,” she added with a pointed look that left me squirming. “You’re easily bored and you don’t like to be tied down.”

“On the downside, it’s hard for you to take your responsibilities seriously. Next is your Outer Self, or what you show the world, the people around you. This also involves your greatest talents and abilities. Yours is a 2: You appear sweet and shy—”

“You don’t like to be noticed. You go with the flow in a crowd. You’re very sensitive—”

“…now stop interrupting. You like detail work and order, are conservative, have an analytical mind. You’re tactful, diplomatic and patient. Which explains why you’re so good in customer service.”

“Your Heart Self, or your heart’s desire is a 5 also. You want adventure and you’d like to travel alot. You’d love nothing more than to be free of responsibilities…ahem…that would hold you in any one place or situation. Keywords are change, excitement, stimulation, challenges.”

“This goes with your Inner Self and desiring freedom and not wanting responsibility.”
“I’m responsible!”
“The Key,” she began with another pointed look. “This is a tool for inner guidance and can open the doors of life for you. Yours is a 7. You can accomplish things through analysis, research, inner guidance, spirituality, perseverance, refinement, wisdom, a desire for perfection and quality. Experiences should be met with inner peace, sensitivity, faith, poise and wisdom.”

. “Your Subconscious Self tells how you respond to situations and relationships. This deals with emotions and automatic, gut-level reactions, like slamming on your breaks when you nearly rear-end someone.”
“Knee jerk reactions, you mean?”
“Yeah…for you this is also a 7. You react to situations with seeming indifference. You may appear unemotional, aloof and almost uncaring but underneath you are sensitive, feel deeply, sympathize, and care very much. You analyze everything and usually see all sides. How many times have you refereed a fight between myself or Jilly?”

“You’re also secretive, well-balanced, and often technical in your approach to things. In emergency situations, your response is to pray.”

“The first Vowel of our first name at birth has a great influence on your spiritual outlook. The “Receptive E” like in Betty, Jenny, or Fred is you. You can search so hard that you fail to see what you find, which usually makes you even more frantic.”

Interesting side note, this last one is a lot of what propels Stephie AND the first vowel is the same in her adoptive and birth name (again this wasn’t deliberate).

“Karmic Lessons. Yours are 4 and 6 : I think those are pretty self explanatory…unless you need me to explain Karma to you,” Vanessa offered with a smile.
“I know my way out,” I said softly. After the last revelation I wasn’t sure I wanted to hear the next two.
“Okay, okay! 4: In the past you have disliked work–the slow, building, manual kind. You have avoided it by choosing life situations where it wasn’t necessary because manual labor represents physical strain with little to show for it. You have failed to learn self-discipline—“ Mom snorted and Vanessa smirked as she continued, “–organization and routine. In this life you will be forced to work to achieve anything.”
“Interesting,” Mom mumbled.
Yeah, real interesting. “Guess we know why I hate vacuuming.”
“6: You have been overly concerned with yourself and to the point you’ve refused to accept responsibility—“ that one got me another pointed look from Vanessa. I was beginning to hate the “R” word, “–burdens and obligations. You haven’t bothered to finish whatever you have begun and have wanted no part of unions, partnerships, or close associations. You know nothing of giving service or of devotion. Until you learn to accept responsibility, and to do so willingly, life will be frustrating because obligations will be forced upon you at every turn. You will need to learn the value of home and family and of creating an atmosphere of harmony. If you fail to learn the lesson of being a good mate, the union will most likely end, leaving you feeling guilty and unhappy.

Smoking Update

This one defintely has to be filed under Bitch 😀

Monica–isn’t Zyban also Wellbutrin? I took Wellbutrin for two years(chronic depression) and smoked like a freight train. 😕 Shan I do believe a lot of it is mindset, but I won’t preach to the choir. The last time I quit was just EASY. I’d just finished my first manuscript and thougth “If I can write a manuscript, I can do anything–including quit!”

Suzanne…my biological grandfather died at age 70 of lung cancer and smoked till the day he died. I’ve heard lung cancer is awful (not to mention Monica and Hollie’s comments!) and I don’t want to go like that. For anyone interested, this is what I’ve used to help kick the habit–I used it last time too 🙂 .

Was incredibly grumpy Sunday night and Monday morning, :undecided: ) but the kids survived. Went to bed early with a headache. Throat’s rough. Smoked 6 ciggies Monday, about 1/2 at a time. It was defintely more about the “light up habit” than really wanting one.

So far only two today but I couldn’t even finish the second one. It was like sucking a tailpipe–go figure. 😆